To start Anew
April 9, 2012 Leave a comment
It’s Easter Sunday and for Catholics it symbolizes a new beggining. A new life. A rebirth.
Although I worked like crazy during Holy week, today I get to think about my life. My past and my path. I don’t have a lot of accomplishments, based on my life expectations. I didn’t walk the path I dreamt I would. I took the path of opportunity. A righteous, diligent and stuck-up path.
Now looking at it. I just see a big empty and unfulfilling space. However, I didn’t start like this. I used to want the cookie, I dreamt of the moon, I craved for the world. Then I guess reality just hit me right on the face. And it hit me freaking damn hard! I realized that yes, you can dream and it is free to dream. But it is extremely costly to live that dream. I did what I have to, not what I love to do. And it all came tumbling down on me. I don’t blame anyone else, I actually somehow blame myself for the ‘off’ choices I made. It is exhausting. But these were my choices.
I have no cookie, I have no moon and I havent seen the world but I haven’t lost everything. I have time and enough energy to walk thru life and face new challenges.
Life, though not the same as I’ve wanted it to be has been good to me. The usual ups & downs but nothing really serious (I think). So I am thankful for what I have and I will work hard and play harder to get to where I want to be and what I want to have. I will and can start anew!
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